L.i.F.

Understanding: The White Flag

I need somebody who “understands.”

There comes a time in almost everyone’s life where you begin to feel: empty. During those times, it feels as though all that has been brought upon you, will soon collapse and you will soon be free of stress. This is the exact feeling I’ve been having for quite some time now—it makes me want to surrender. There is just way too much for me to control now; Family, School, Work, Church, Friends, Fraternity.. and the list goes on. It’s come to a point where I’ve found myself completely lost, and what sucks is that; it’s not only affecting me physically by making me exhausted, it’s also altering the way I am as a person. 

Fingers are being pointed at me for my faults—I’m sorry I’m not perfect. I strive to become something great, but it feels like nothing is ever “good enough.” Not going to lie, I do have my faults and I’m willing to live up with those faults and consequences. Changed is the word that people have been calling me lately, but have I really changed? Or do they not understand that what lies under my faults, is the same person they’ve known all along? 

No need to assume—think about it critically. No need for value assumptions. No need for direct/indirect ambiguities. It’s a phase that each individual must overcome in order to figure out who they really are; their true identity. I always ask myself, “If I looked in the mirror, how would I define myself?” It’s time to turn the page, read on to something new. Maybe it will benefit me. Maybe it will benefit others. Maybe, just maybe, it’s time for CHANGE.